mmoa_writes

My god I am pissed off. Really pissed off... alright, a bit of a hyperbole, but I am somewhere between amused and annoyed and vaguely depressed, so I'll choose annoyed.

I really don't get it. Whenever she's there, she acts like I'm going to eat her: if she's found someone else, then all the power to her, but I mean come on! Why the hell are you acting like I'm going to rape you or something - I don't particularly care anymore - if she knew me well enough, then she'd have understood that. Nah, she just looks in anoher direction acts all lovely and bashful and maidenly and shit and I'm just standing there like, I COME IN PEEEEEEEEACE! I am not going to hurt you -- after all, your friends might beat me up --just fucking get over yourself.

The other chick - though she was a friend, not a girlfriend-girlfriend - does that as well. Talking to a friend yesterday and she bounds over and calls out the other girl's name and conveniently ignores me, so I just hurry off to Spanish as I'm late anyway. Bitch.

Jesus! What's the point? It's like, she'll sit with me and a few friends for lunch, but really only because of some other folks who we can both claim as friends and I'm like "You stupid cow; if we're all so dreadfully uncool and too fucking deep and can only ever talk about one thing, then just fuck off and leave us alone. You can go screech with your fellow kindergartners, you stupid sow..."

*sighs*

I'm trying to make things up to her, but I can't be bothered anymore: I know what choice she's made - there's no point acting against it.

Damn it, ex's... can't live with 'em, but somehow can't live without 'em.